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(My living room)

To some this may seem stupid, but you didn't see what this room looked like before. It was so bad I couldn't even bring myself to do before and after pictures. But now it looks great. I cleaned ALL day. Rearranged and moved stuff all alone. I think it turned out great. I am hurt that all Randy could do was find things wrong with it and what I did. At least it's fucking clean, and guess who did it? Me, again. This will be the last time though! Never again will I have to work all day at cleaning this room.


Amanda B.

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(Emo myspace pic Crystal)

So yeah, this is the stupid stuff we do. But I actually really like how this picture turned out. Kinda Arm n Leg meets Rea meets Awesome-ness. Lol. I think I have mad skills, in fact I know I do. :)


Amanda B.

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(Funnel cake!!!!)

This is from the South Florida Fair! Michael took me and it was so much fun. We had a great time walking around eating like pigs and enjoying ourselves. Thanks again Stink Bug!

Amanda B.

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(Me, my boobs and Crystal)

Yes, my boobs really needed to be pointed out there. lol. I just really like this picture and it was a fun night. It was so cold we had to sit inside! We are rock stars!!

Amanda B.

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(My bestie/gal pal/girlfriend)

(Me)

Arm n leg. Arm n leg. Lawls!!!

Amanda B.

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(First picture I took with my new Camera)

Mommy got me a new camera with her points from sending in ink thingies. Thanks mommy!! It rocks, still getting use to it. But it rocks soooo much.

Amanda B.

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(Normally I'd hate this picture.)

But I think it's cool and funny. I was trying to take a picture of me and a friend but forgot my zoom was on. LOL. Good times.

Amanda B.

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(Angle, white one and Ella, Black one)

They are MaryBeth's babys. They are so good and so cute. So fluffy! Holding Angel is like hugging a cloud!! I got to see them cause Danny was in town from New York for a little bit. Yaye!

Amanda B.

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(Our poor baby...)

Michael's car has been acting up, so I took her to see Adam. He's our new car guy, lol. She is still not feeling well but it's expensive to fix cars!!

Amanda B.

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(I really am pretty.)

I have a hard time telling myself that. I normally hate taking pictures. I really like this one. Yet another reason I need contacts. lol.

Amanda B.

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(My new wallet. I love it so much.)

So apparently there has been a purse guy coming to our store this whole time and I finally got to see what he had! I fell in love with this. My me feel fancy.

Amanda B.

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(Cosmetics by Andrea Beauty Supply, my job.)

I work here! Been working here for over a year and it's the best-est.

Amanda B.

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(The best color in the world!! NEON HOT PINK!!)

This color makes me so happy. Like a little kid.

Amanda B.

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(Funny face!!)

I rocked my black polka dot dress. :)

Amanda B.

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(Jersey Shore cast. Ronnie, Sammi Sweetheart, Mike "The Situation", DJ Pauly D, JWoww, Snooki and Vinny.)

I honestly am in love with this show. I can't wait for it to come out on DVD so I and see deleted stuff and extra scenes. I totally love it. Spent Saturday watching it. lol. FIST PUMP!!

Amanda B.

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(Mommy and I.)

I was trying to take a picture of us but she decided this would be better. LOL.

Amanda B.

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(Tanya, my Thursday night Ladies night buddy. And my roommate. :) )

(Me!!!)

(Bud light for Tanya, Parrot and pineapple and a "Jolly Rancher" for me. Yummy!)

Tanya and I went to Home Run this past Thursday for Ladies night. We've been before, made friends with one of the bartenders and a few bands. Love going cause we can just relax and forget about life for a while.

Amanda B.

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(This picture rocks)

Took this on Christmas. It's three pictures, I made it so much cooler. I love it.

Amanda B.

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(Me when I was little "helping" my dad wash the car)

Forgot to update yesterday. Here is a picture of my from when I was little. :D

Amanda B.

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(he's home with us, well with mommy and Jess)

Yaye!!

Amanda B.

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(This is Bentley, Jess and I get to meet him tomorrow and he might get to live with Jess and mommy)

Yaye kitty!!

Amanda B.

Tired

I'm just really tired today. That's it.

Amanda B.

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(I really like this picture of me, took it today)

My red hair! I love being a redhead. Miss blonde, so use to being blonde still getting use to this color. I look like my mommy now. :)

Amanda B.

Weird-ness

So I got a phone call from an old friend. Not that old, we only stopped talking a few months ago. But it was weird. Things went, okay, but I just don't trust her. But I don't want to hold a grudge, I'd rather be able to say hi to her once and a while then never at all. I think I did the right thing by going to lunch with her.

Amanda B.

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(Athena)

(Athena)

(Armani)

(Armani)

My kittys!! I loves them lots and lots!!

Amanda B.

Why is it so hard

I feel like no matter how hard I try this change thing my life is still the same. I am still broke and tired. I don't know. Things just don't feel right, still everything is hard. I just wish I could be a kid again, before I got in trouble and before I had to grow up. I don't know....

Amanda B.

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(My stink bug hiding)

(That's my baby with the Teddy I got him)

He makes me smile.

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Amanda and Michael

forever and always

Cleaned and relaxed, lots of smiles

Slept in today, didn't mean to. :) Cleaned more, still not done but looking better. Takes time. I am going to go out with my friend/ roommate, Tanya, tonight. Don't get to do that often. Working from home tomorrow, no clinic. Yaye! Nothing sure exciting today. I am still doing this though, so that is exciting. :)

Amanda B.

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(everyone should go out and buy this book)

This book is the best!! It is a fill in journal about being happy. I bought it with a gift card I got from Michael's mom for my birthday last year. So far, I love it. It makes me happy. :D

Amanda B.

Amazing Day Off

For a change we didn't fight. It was amazing. Michael and I together all day. We went to lunch, the book store and mom-mom's house. It was an amazing and wonderful day. Now he is sleeping, my baby. In the morning we are going to our weekly breakfast at Pearls. :)

Amanda B.

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(This poster is at the foot of my bed... I wake up to them. 0.0)

I love them, Flight of the Conchords. Look them up. Do it.

Amanda B.

What change really means to me

It means becoming a better person.
It mean becoming a happier person.

Amanda B.

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So I am going to add two pictures tonight. Just so you can get the full view. Here goes....

(I call this the shit corner, all of this gets bigger over time. I didn't even get to try to clean this today.)

(Yeah, not even saying anything)

I hope that by tomorrow night it wont look like this. I hope that not only will this room look better but I can get started on the rest of the house. I am really the only one that cares, the only one who tries. But I am sure someone, somewhere will fight me on that. I still think I did good for what I did. I am just the only one that can tell.

Amanda B.

Not sure, already

I didn't think this would happen so soon. I am already doubting myself. I am doubting everything. It seams like the one person I am changing for, besides myself of course, doesn't even read this blog. I have been working hard and it seams like nothing works. I don't know what to do. I need help. I wish he read this, I read his. I just don't understand. I still want to change, but I had hoped he would want to be apart of my change. That he would have wanted to help.

Amanda B.

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(Where I spent my day off today)

Yeah, there's no sheets or pillow cases, but it's my new safe place. I love this bed and I love sleeping next to Michael in it. But not laying here all day on my days off. See you at night bed.

Amanda B.

Days Off

I decided on my days off I need to change what I do on my days off. Yeah I like laying in bed, but I need to clean more and spend more time with family and friends. I think I need to change how I spend my time and really do stuff that matters. Cleaning, playing with my cats, cuddling my boyfriend and hanging out with my mom and sister. That's what I wanna do. That's what I am going to do.

Amanda B.

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(Me after working a surgery day at the clinic)

Even though this is not the best picture of me, nor did I take it, it means a lot to me. In this picture I am wearing something from my mother (the doggie scrub top) and my pearl necklace that MaryBeth gave me. I love both of those things because they both got me something they knew I would love.

Also, my hair is red!! I still love it, I miss the blonde now and then but red works on me. :)

Amanda B.

Change at work

Things at work have seamed to take a turn for the worst. There has been a change in my bosses attitude towards me. I am going to work my butt off and make her realize that I really want to be there. This would be an example of how change can be negative. But I am just going to change myself and work harder. I know I can do it. :p

Amanda B.

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(Michael, Jeff and Shari)

This picture perfectly describes how I celebrated this past New Years and the one before. At Jeff and Shari's. Eating good food, lots and lots of good  food. :) Playing Wii games. (they have one of the only Wii games I will play.) Watching the ball drop and talking about how sad/amazing it is that Dicky is still hosting. (Go him!!)

New Years 2009:

Michael and I had been "talking" since late November or early December. This was the first time I would be meeting any of his friends. I was scared as all hell and wasn't sure what to expect. (Spoiler!! Ended up being awesome.) Right when the ball dropped Michael asked me to be his girlfriend. I, of course, said  yes.

Fast Forward....

New Years 2010:

Michael and I are still going strong. We've had lots of ups and downs, even some really close calls. But we are still together. Happy anniversary Michael  and I!! <3

Also, Jeff and Shari turned out to be two amazing people who's friendship  I wouldn't trade for the world. New Years Eve  was our "friend-iversary". Yaye!!

Amanda B.

Happy New Years/ Anniversary

January  1, 2009: Michael asks me to be his girlfriend when the ball drops on new years at his friends, Jeff and Shari's, house. I say yes.

Fast forward to January 1, 2010: I celebrate my anniversary with Michael  and my first "friend-iversary" with Jeff and Shari. Yaye!!

The reason this is now my first memory of 2010 is because of all the changes I have already made,  alone and with Michael. I never thought that a year later we would not only still be together but be living together and still be as deeply in love as when we started. We have had our ups and downs, boy let me tell you!

That's why I want to bring the word change into my life. I want to change how easily I am to anger and fighting. I want to make this year less of a roller coaster and more of a lazy river boat ride. I want to remember more happy times then unhappy ones. So I am going to work on changing my anger into something better. Next time I get mad I will clean or do laundry or, if I am able, I will sit down with Michael and talk about what and why I feel mad.

I think this will not only be good for my love relationship, but it will also come into effect  in other parts of my life. Family, friends, work, driving and anything else where stress levels can get high. I think this is a good place to start changing.

Amanda B.

First post for new blog, first post for new year

I have never been really good about blogging. I always start and do really good for, well a few days or a few months. But this time it is different. From now on this blog will be updated everyday, twice a day just before bed.

Let me explain. My mom sent me these emails, one was about having a word for the year. Something you wanted to more directly incorporate into your life. A word you reflect on, think about and bring into your everyday life. I thought this was great!! I love talking, I love learning, I love thinking. I plan to write a small post each night about how I incorporated my word into my life more. About how it makes me feel, or what I think about it.

My word is change. I have always loved change, but now I am looking at this word in a different light. In less then five(5) months I will be twenty-one(21). Most people look at twenty-one(21) as time to party, time to drink and be stupid. I want to be able to say I am becoming an adult, I am an adult. In order for me to start to not fear the real world, responsibility and growing up I am going to change. Small changes in my life, I'm not even really sure what yet. It could be something as dramatic as the color of my hair (I went from bright blonde to red red), something small like saving ten(10) dollars every week so I have money for next Christmas (not a bad idea...) or even something huge like buying my first car (I hope, I hope...).

My point being, I will be finding ways to change. But only in goods ways and nothing that will hurt others or make anyone else's life harder. I really want to be able to take care of myself even though I have a wonderful boyfriend who has been making sure I am happy and taking care of for a year now. I want to be able to take care of him back. To be able to help out more with bills, gas, food and things we want. My real goal for this year, well my two goals, are; 1. buy my own car and 2. get our own place. By the end of the year I hope to have accomplished these goals or at least be close to them. The only way I can reach these goals is to change somethings in my life like spending habits and eating fast food everyday.

I think everyone should pick a word this year. I know it has given me something nice to look forward to everyday. I get to share my day and my progress with everyone. Hopefully, even if you don't pick a word, my blogs will maybe help you in some way. :)

Now the second post that will happen every evening will be a picture with a small description of what was going on, how I felt and why it is important to me. This was another email my mom sent to me, another great idea. I think it is a great idea because it will help me remember things that I otherwise would have never been able to. It'll be fun to look back on it at the end of the year also.

I am going to make sure I stick with this. I am kind of dedicating this to some people. First and foremost, my mom since she did find these ideas and tell me about them and because I want to make her proud of her first born child. I want her to see that I can make it on my own in this crazy world, but that I still think about her everyday (which I will because of this blog). The second person this is for would be my boyfriend, Michael. For the last year he has been so amazing. Dealing with a not so nice step-father (now ex), giving me a place to live, paying for everything I want and need, letting me use his car (sorry Mom and Dad) and for trying to make me happy everyday. I want to be able to show him that I am willing to change for us, to help us. The third person this is for is... Myself!! I really need something positive in my life and this blog is going to be it.

I am super excited to get stared on my new year and working on my two projects. Yaye!!

Amanda B.

Of course I have to give credit where credit is due.

[Ali Edwards] : One Little Word 2010

and

Project 365: How to Take a Photo a Day and See Your Life in a Whole New Way

and

Little Scraps Of Paper - Jennifer Paff (My mommy!)